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Free eBooks website꘡Hope everyone doing well. Currently, the situation of pandemic seems like getting nowhere. Many bookshops being forced to shut down. It breaks my heart when seeing one of my favorite places no longer exits. Soon would it all be at the tip of our fingers only? I wish the physical books will still remain as it is.

However, I can't deny the existence of an ebook somehow help us in the real life. It could help a child that having difficulty reading can slowly read this is because of the features that come together with the application. I got a few students that having difficulty in reading regarding the disease that they been diagnoses with. They are having Dyslexia.

dyslexia

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noun

1. a general term for disorders that involve difficulty in learning to read or interpret words, letters, and other symbols, but that do not affect general intelligence.

Most of the apps will come out with free changing fonts. you can play with the texts, changing the colors, changing the fonts, even can increase the space between the words. These features really play a big role there, so today I will come out with Free eBooks website

1. OceanofDF (https://oceanofpdf.com/)

Consist of thousand of ebook with a varied selection of genre. Easy to navigate the website and all the ebook comes with PDF format.

       2. Project Gutenberg (http://www.gutenberg.org/)

It's a library of over 60,000 free ebooks. You will find the world's great literature here.

            3. Freekidsbooks (https://freekidsbooks.org/)

One of my favorite websites where it has read online functions too. You can choose the book by your kid's grade. From toddlers to young adult genre.

        4. Manybooks (https://manybooks.net/) 

 

More than 50,000 free ebooks collections waiting to be discovered. From action, mystery, young adult to children's ebook you can find from this website.

 

 

 

         5. PNM elib (https://pnm.elib.com.my/)

 

Our national library website also one of the famous website which you can borrow a book in a week then after that it will be automatically being return, You no need to worries about the overdue book.

 

 

AN ATTEMPT TO FORGET #1

AN ATTEMPT TO FORGET ꘡ My journey to healing ma heart, ma soul. 

When you feel like you're okay. When you feel you're strong. When everything starts to feel normal suddenly reality strikes your face. The pain still there and once again you feel it. The pain that you thought it is gone a long time ago. Damn it hurt more than the previous one. You clench your teeth and pray that this pain will be gone soon. You pray so hard, you can't take it anymore.

At this stage, you will have some thoughts that you rather be dead than have to face the feeling. You are so weak. Miserable but still act strong in the surface but deep inside only god knows how your feeling. It's like a walking entity with no soul, you feel so numb. How you pull yourself up every single day reminds ourself that you have to be strong, so that others don't feel weak being around you. Inside of you just a painful memories and an unfillable void...The things that you do to make you sane is totally insane...

There will be a time when you will prefer to watch sad movies, listen to sad songs because this time you can feel the sadness from the songs. You will have questions that linger in your thought.

" What's my fault?" 

"What I have done?"

I only have a few of my bestie. They usually not involved with my love life, but they always been there when I'm at my weakest.

"Hey, what's up?"

"I broke up with him" 

I'm forcing a smile when meeting her. She just sits quietly next to me and when I started to cry she just hugs me tight without a word. You can't talk because no words can describe your pain at that time and remembering the details just make you bleed again. Thank You, GOD. I still have people who care about me.

What's wrong with me? 

Am I too bad? or am I too good? 

You still being left whether you being a good person or a bad person. Then slowly you will change. You become bitter and so damn cold. You feel by doing that you can protect your heart from being hurt again. At one point you start thinking that it's okay being alone. Anyhow you still manage to survive and live without a man.

"Shit! a nightmare again"

I seldom got a nightmare, but usually when I dream it will be the most horrible and I won't dare to sleep back again. This time it happens again. Woke up in the middle of the night, and don't know what to do. Usually, I will text him because I know he always be there. Guess what, once again I feel so pathetic, not because of the nightmare but the fact that this time you have to deal with the situation alone. You're literally ALONE. The saddest fact that you have to shallow that nite. All these memories make me sick. 

Moving on not that easy...admit that I'm trying..trying so hard. Now I understand why people become so bloody cold. They have been hurting again and again. They have been fighting their own battle. My advice is 

"Be kind to everyone. You never know what they have been dealing with" 

My unconscious mind at 2:53am

to be continue....